Soul Scribblings
words of darkness in the realm of light
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Mid-light
so easy to hurt
so easy to heal
all in sync with
what i feel
is this abuse
or am i wrong?
my faith is weak
when night is strong...
is that a push,
a call to arms,
or just the mood
of someone charmed?
ubiquitous
uncertainty,
ambiguous
and inside me
i can't decide
if i am safe,
this body shared
by witch and waif
the turning tide
of my own soul
ebbs and flows:
i'm sometimes whole.
if it is temporary,
this unchained insanity,
where do i go?
the love won't set me free...
Stunned
i lie awake confused
spider-web dreams
and reality fused;
the dragging hours pass
their minutes marked by
the rain upon the glass
euphoria mixed with pain
trust cut with fear,
the line between loss and gain...
was never less clear
Held Back
if i am nothing
why do you care
you hold me close
but unaware
my tears float this fantasy
but drown that other part of me
you are the one, there is no choice
emotion cuts right through my voice
a knife that leads me with its edge
and keeps me in a silent dread
if you don't see this
why do you stare
you bring me close
but never there
my life is lived for paltry things
the empty hope tomorrow brings
you are the thought that keeps me strong
when words are harsh and days are long
i want to be there when you are low
i want to be the place you go
if i am waiting
will you be there
you give me hope
and then despair
my love is here
but will i be there?
Pieces - Pisces
my fear is alive
spreads its wings and flies
high above it sees me run
my life is lived under the gun
a change of pace
a different place
somewhere not so bleak
the beak is wide
a battle cry
madness spreads below the sun
the ground erupts with what i shun
the talons poised
but not my choice
what is it that i seek?
what do i fight
when nothing's right
when all i touch becomes decayed
and i am jailer to my cage
a kind of peace
that missing piece
that haunts my every move
hide your face
a fall from grace
a never-ending dip in time
to count the shadows in my mind
and those i love
are who i shove
when needed most to soothe
Shutdown
black, warm
dark and sweet
night in the room
and a moon on the street
wrapped up
in my cathode ray coffin
fingers that move
no reason to speak
'just 16' was his
motive for leaving
'but 17' said I
'is your heart still in reach?'
just give me this one thing
i ask nothing more.....
happiness whispers
'i'm not here to keep'
the daze of this dusklight
is all i can import
when i open my eyes
and break from this sleep
Out
unhinged again
the door swings shut
on my face
wishing for something clear-cut
crystal pure
no more signs
or signals to read
out
is easier better?
am i missing out
both ways?
maybe i'm the dysfunction
the inherent flaw
in my own life
Shining Bright
a pillar of salt
in a snowy wasteland
you brought me
a thaw
and turned your back
there was no warning,
shot to kill
a smile that i drank like a drug
and now i pay in pain
abandonment
by my safety net
my support evaporates like
water in the sun
shining bright, despite the blight
i have become a pillar of salt
Passing Time
half the summer sun is gone
autumn breathes inside the earth's womb
and it is time to let you go.
the days were
when it seemed the stars would go out
with your passing;
but they still shine.
i refused to believe
that death
had been your right.
even when my guilt swallowed me whole
i did not hold,
did not see
you were gone.
but now, now you sleep
and i release you
as i release myself
Tick Tock
the clock is my enemy
rules me with a whip
but i'm too nauseated to see
through my fingertips
this cold comfort cave
like a stolen womb
threatens my sanity
beckons as my tomb
there are worse things that could happen
just wait and see
the electron guns blast
my thoughts run like sheep
this night won't last forever
but the hate is mine to keep
why do you do this to me
pushed away like a beggar's hand
why do i do this to me
we'll never understand
there are worse things that will happen
just wait and see
i'm on my last two legs now
those fingers down my throat
but i can't expel the pain
or swim my mental moat
Divine
would it change a thing
this twist of mind
would tomorrow bring
a different kind
of limping smile, awake
to the push to break
down inside
and just die
or the iron you need
i know you'll find
don't let them bleed
don't let them bind
you down to the world
when the ropes uncurl
your pride
you'll be divine
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